Where to go with the rage
Thursday September 10, 2009
25 years ago, after giving up using drugs and alcohol to hide my pain, repressed memories of severe abuse by both my mother and father surfaced. The “true” story of my life took years to unravel. I found that I splintered into many different parts to deal with the pain and to hide the truth. I’ve had years of therapy and thought I was mostly “over it” but I find that I have a deep sense of deprivation that surfaces constantly, with such a critical voice: “You’re a failure, you’ve done nothing with your life.”
In the beginning when learning of the journey of recovering repressed memories I read all your books and found them very helpful, and hopeful. Now, years later, I am sometimes so full of despair and no hope for the future. I am seeing a new therapist who does help a little, but… How do I deal with feeling so deprived? There is rage but where do I go with the rage?
AM: Towards your cruel caregivers. Maybe my recent book “Free from Lies” can help you in doing this.